By
Janine Ashbless (Guest Blogger)
“The
Scapegoat Azazel himself has taken you for his paramour. And exposure
to his essence changes you.”
-
In Bonds of the Earth
When I started writing for publication, I had no idea how it would change me. I thought “I’ll make stuff up, and I’ll write it down, and then people might read it – basically it all depends what I can come with in my imagination,” and that was about the extent of what I pictured the writing life as.
Bear
in mind that my chosen genre was erotica. I didn’t have a wild past
of swinging or partying to draw upon — in fact I’m not sure that
I’d even been to bed with another woman at that stage. I was an
ordinary, dullish geekish female, writing fantasy erotica about
bronze-age warriors and werewolves and undead and gigantic dragon
cocks, so if it was all in my head then that didn’t matter, did it?
It didn’t matter that I was socially shy and awkward, that I
couldn’t bear to hear the sound of my own voice on tape, and
greatly disliked my own body.
Fast
forward eighteen years, and I’m still an erotica author, currently
writing a trilogy about fallen angels: The Book of the Watchers. I
still make stuff up. All sorts of stuff. But writing has changed me
beyond recognition.
Writing
got me into blogging – first all a group blog for Black Lace
authors, Lust
Bites,
and then my
own.
I post three or four times a week and my entire routine revolves
around it. I took tea in the House of Lords as part of an author’s
campaign group just because I thought it would make a good blog post.
Writing
got me onto Facebook, and opened up the whole community of amazing
erotica writers out there, most of whom are women, most of whom are
progressive and gutsy and politically active, and some of whom I’ve
met in person now. I used to be a flaming leftie PC hippy by the
standards of people I worked with, but OH BOY have I had to confront
my prejudices and my conformity and my unthinking entitlement over
the last decade.
Writing
got me into a BDSM/fetish nightclub and whipped in public. It got me
to Erotica conventions and expos where I’ve hung out with
sex-workers and techies and political activists. It got my picture
into a couple of national newspapers. It got me standing up on stages
reading absolute filth to strangers, and recording podcasts and video
that anyone online could see. It got me editing an anthologies. It
got me writing HTML and making Powerpoint presentations, and sitting
on a panel at the World Fantasy Convention.
Writing
got me posing naked for photographs that appeared in a book.
Writing
got me to Montenegro, in the south of Europe, because the heroine of
The Book of the Watchers, Milja Petak, was born there and large parts
of Vol.1: Cover
Him With Darkness,
are set in Montenegro. I believe in the importance of getting details
right in a novel, especially if you’re going to be writing about
someone else’s country or culture. So it was my responsibility as
an author to get my ass out there and see the place with my own eyes
— the remote and barren limestone mountains, the beautiful
Mediterranean coastline, the ancient monasteries of the Serbian
Orthodox faith.
For
the same reason, I went to Ethiopia for twenty days when I was
writing Vol.2: In
Bonds of the Earth,
because it’s a cradle of ancient Christianity that very few in the
West know about, and absolutely essential to the whole plot of the
trilogy — Ethiopia is the nation that preserved the apocryphal Book
of Enoch when it was wiped from the Biblical canon. I’ve sat with
Gelada baboons because I’m a writer. I’ve walked through
subterranean passages into ancient rock-cut churches. I’ve stood
fifty yards from the original Ark of the Covenant (well, maybe…).
Writing
has transformed me. Writing has — literally — put me on the map
of literature.
Here I am, middle island, in tiny tiny lettering, lol:
I
have so many reasons to love the writer’s life. And I’d never
have believed it if you’d told me at the start. xxx Janine
Blurb
“I
will free them all.”
When
Milja Petak released the fallen angel Azazel from five thousand years
of imprisonment, she did it out of love and pity. She found herself
in a passionate sexual relationship beyond her imagining and control
–
the
beloved plaything of a dark and furious demon who takes what he
wants, when he wants, and submits to no restraint. But what she
hasn’t
bargained on is being drawn into his plan to free all his
incarcerated brothers and wage a war against the Powers of Heaven.
As
Azazel drags Milja across the globe in search of his fellow rebel
angels, Milja fights to hold her own in a situation where every
decision has dire consequences. Pursued by the loyal Archangels, she
is forced to make alliances with those she cannot trust: the
mysterious Roshana Veisi, who has designs of her own upon Azazel; and
Egan Kansky, special forces agent of the Vatican –
the
man who once saved then betrayed her, who loves her, and who will do
anything he can to imprison Azazel for all eternity.
Torn
every way by love, by conflicting loyalties and by her own passions,
Milja finds that she too is changing –
and
that she must do things she could not previously have dreamt of in
order to save those who matter to her.
In Bonds of the Earth is the second in the Book of the Watchers trilogy and the sequel to Cover Him With Darkness.
Excerpt
from In Bonds of the Earth
Wrapping
the cheap cotton throw from the foot of the bed around my bare body,
I padded through to the doorway. The Archangel Michael stood in the
middle of my small apartment, looking about him at the book shelves
and the pictures. A paperback copy of The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
slipped from his hand back onto the low table.
“Hello,
Milja. Nice place. Has he moved his toothbrush in yet?”
It
was like waking to find a giant bird of prey in my tiny living room;
he looked wildly unsuited to a domestic setting and way too big for
it, even with wings furled. In fact, with that Roman nose and those
unblinking amber eyes, there was something distinctly golden
eagle-like about him. If he stretched out he could knock over walls,
I thought.
“What
do you think you’re doing?” I asked. “This is my home. You
can’t just come barging in!”
“You’re
right,” he said, looking startled. “I have to have your
permission. No, hold on, wait…that’s vampires. Shame.”
I
pursed my lips. “Well, God certainly did not hold back on the
sarcasm when he made you guys.”
He
smirked. If you’re that good-looking, even a less-than-warm smile
can be a weapon of devastating charm. Turning to the couch, he sat
down with arms draped over the back and knees spread. It was not so
much an invitation as a claiming of territory.
“What
do you want?” I kept my voice hard, even as I thought of the icon
of Saint Michael that had stood guard over the key in my father’s
church. That holy painting had always made me feel nervous as a
child, and he was no less intimidating in the flesh. His piercing
gaze rested lightly upon me, with all the gentleness of a
sword-point.
“Nothing.”
His
rigger boots were caked in dried mud, I noticed, and flaking on my
rug. I wished he would blink. It still creeped me out, even though
Azazel should have inured me to it. “Angels aren’t supposed to
lie. What are you doing here?”
“Waiting.”
“So,
what…you’re sitting guard over me until Azazel comes back? Is
that your plan?”
“He’s
too much of a coward to face me. Runs every time.”
“If
that’s the way you want to call it.”
He
looked at the kitchen door. “I see you have a kettle. You got any
tea? I like that Earl Grey stuff. Tastes like flowers.”
“I
know the rules, you know. You can’t actually do anything to me.”
“True
enough. And I’m not stopping you leaving, if that’s worrying
you.”
“I
can move out. Get a new place.”
“That’s
fine, I’ll find you. This apartment’s a bit small for the two of
us, to be honest.”
I
clenched my jaw, weighing my options. “Okay,” I said, and dropped
my wrap to reveal my naked body, in all its post-coital salty glow.
That
wiped the smile off his lips. “Don’t play those games,” he
growled, sitting up and looking away from me.
Love
is Azazel’s weak spot. Shame is theirs. They’re terrified of
their own human flesh.
“What?
Does this make you uncomfortable? That’s a pity, seeing as how it’s
my house and I like to walk around it naked.”
“You
are shameless.” His gaze was sliding all over the place, not daring
to settle on me.
“I’ve
got nothing to be ashamed of.” I hefted my breasts and jiggled
them. “They’re my tits. In my apartment. If you don’t want to
see, clear out.”
“Put
your robe back on,” he rasped.
“Oops,”
I said. “Did I drop it?” Turning my back to him, I spread my feet
and, straight-legged, bent over to pick the fabric up again. Nice and
slow…
He
moved so fast he’d launched me across the room and onto my bed
before I even realized he was out of his seat. The abused mattress
twanged in alarm. It knocked the wind out of me—and more than that,
shocked me half to death. I wasn’t in the least bit hurt, not even
bruised, but I hadn’t expected him to touch me at all, under the
rules. Maybe the Boatman sailed closer to the wind than I’d
bargained for.
“Don’t
do that, whore!” he barked, leaning into my face. He looked
furious. I knew why. It takes a human decades to learn how to deal
with all the things that come with an adult body—all those hormones
and instincts—without losing control. Angels never had the
advantage of a gradual introduction.
I
had two choices: surrender or fight. I bared my teeth and snarled
right back at him, matching his rage and contempt. “Or what? You’re
going to rape me? ’Cause I think that might just count as a fall
from Grace, don’t you? And then you’d be royally fucked, Mister
Michael.”
He
recoiled, drawing himself up in undisguised horror. I took advantage
of the gap between us to roll over and pull the drawer of my bedside
cabinet open, pulling out the silicon rabbit sex toy I’d been given
at my graduation party. I hadn’t used it in months, I couldn’t
even remember if there were any batteries in it, and I certainly
wasn’t feeling horny, but I wasn’t going to let that stop me.
“Wanna
watch?” I asked, spreading my legs wide. “Because that’s what
us girls do when we’re home alone these modern days. You can go
into the other room if it squicks you out to see. Then you’ll only
have to listen to the noises I make.”
He
turned on his heel and stomped away, slamming his hands into the
doorframe hard enough to crack the wood. But he didn’t leave
altogether. He was just that bit too stubborn.
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About the Author
Janine
Ashbless is a writer of fantasy erotica and steamy romantic
adventure. She likes to write about magic and myth and mystery,
dangerous power dynamics, borderline terror, and the not-quite-human.
Buyer
beware! If you like dark romance and a hard-won Happily Ever After,
try "Cover Him with Darkness," "Heart of Flame,"
or "The King's Viper." If you prefer challenging erotica,
go for "Red Grow the Roses" or "Named and Shamed"
instead. All her other books lie somewhere on the spectrum between.
Janine
has been seeing her books in print ever since 2000. She's also had
numerous short stories published by Black Lace, Nexus, Cleis Press,
Ravenous Romance, Harlequin Spice, Storm Moon, Xcite, Mischief Books,
and Ellora's Cave among others. She is co-editor of the nerd erotica
anthology 'Geek Love'.
Born
in Wales, Janine now lives in the North of England with her husband
and two rescued greyhounds. She has worked as a cleaner, library
assistant, computer programmer, local government tree officer, and -
for five years of muddy feet and shouting - as a full-time costumed
Viking. Janine loves goatee beards, ancient ruins, minotaurs, trees,
mummies, having her cake and eating it, and holidaying in countries
with really bad public sewerage.
Her
work has been described as:
"Hardcore
and literate" (Madeline Moore) and "Vivid and tempestuous
and dangerous, and bursting with sacrifice, death and love."
(Portia Da Costa).
Author
picture credit to David
Woolfall.
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3 comments:
Hello, Janine!
You really went to Ethiopia to do research for the book. That's amazing. And I'm so jealous...though I certainly agree that writing erotica has changed my life too.
Hope the book does really well!
Great essay, Janine! Thank you for bringing it to us, Lisabet!
♥ JE
Hi, Jeremy! So nice of you to drop by!
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