Although I write in many
genres, BDSM erotica and erotic romance may be my favorites. Indeed,
I first began writing erotica, nearly twenty years ago, in order to
explore my own craving for erotic surrender. In my kinky stories, I
try to communicate the emotional intensity and sense of communion that
have characterized my personal experience with dominance and
submission.
Given the above
confession, you won’t be surprised to hear that I also read a
lot of BDSM fiction. Some stories push my buttons—others
don’t. I like tales with submissives who are brave enough to
admit what they want, and dominants who are nurturing and trustworthy
as well as strict. I also enjoy stories about Doms who have
weaknesses or blind spots, or who are occasionally afflicted by
self-doubt.
All too often, BDSM
fiction features “Teflon Doms”. These Masters are
flawless and hard as diamonds. They’re experts in wielding
every sort of instrument and toy, to maximum effect. They never miss
a stroke. They can inflict a beating or a spanking without tiring, no
matter how long it takes. They can read every nuance of the
sub’s reactions. They know exactly what the sub is thinking,
what she wants, what her limits are. When you’re submitting to
a Teflon Dom, safe words are irrelevant.
Teflon Doms tend to be
tall and muscular, confident to the point of being arrogant.
They’re often taciturn and distant as well, though in BDSM
romance, that’s usually a facade which the heroine will
eventually penetrate.
I’ve come to
seriously dislike Teflon Doms (though given their frequent appearance
in fiction, I surmise that many readers must feel differently). I
know from experience that real world kink involves awkwardness,
mistakes and crossed signals. Most importantly, real world dominants
are not perfectly functioning machines. The Dom is as human as the
sub. He has his own needs, which may or may not be fulfilled
depending on the submissive’s behavior and courage, and his own
worries. Are the ropes too tight? Is he flogging her too hard? Can
he trust her to use her safeword if the scene gets too
intense?
Theo Moore, the hero of
my most recent novel The Gazillionaire and the Virgin,
epitomizes the sort of Dom who turns me on. He’s relatively
inexperienced. Most of what he knows about kink, at least at the
start of the book, derives from Internet research and pornography.
And he’s ashamed of his lurid, sadistic fantasies, until Rachel,
the submissive heroine, encourages him to act on his desires. When he
does let his inner demons out to play, he discovers the joy and the
magic of power exchange. Dominance comes naturally to Theo, but he
never becomes so confident that he loses his emotional connection to
Rachel.
I love Theo. I think
readers will, too. He’s such a welcome relief from the robotic
hunks that characterize so much BDSM erotic romance.
Here’s a snippet, to
show you what I mean.
I
loose my cock from my jeans and pump my erection a few times, just
for effect. I think I’m bigger and harder than ever before. Her
worried gaze flicks down to my cock. “Do you agree, Rachel? Can I
do what I want to you?”
She
swallows. She squirms. This is more difficult for her than I would
have guessed. It was, after all, her idea.
“Well?
Speak up, Dr. Zelinsky.”
“Yes.”
“Yes
what?”
She
squares her shoulders and meets my eyes bravely. “Yes, I consent.
You can do what you want, Theo.”
“Good
girl.” I bend to reward her with a kiss. Her mouth is sweet and
hungry. “If I’m hurting you too much and you want me to stop, say
‘Apple’. Understand?”
“Yes,
yes, of course. ‘Apple’. Now would you please get on with it?”
I
chuckle. “Patience, Rachel. I’m in charge here. It’s not your
place to make demands.” She lets out a squawk as I rather brutally
twist her nipple. “Is it?”
“Ow—no—no,
sir.”
Hmm.
Where did that come from?
“And
from now on, you’ll be quiet, unless I ask you a direct question.
Nod if you agree.”
She
does. Who would have believed Rachel Zelinsky could be so obedient?
I’m
as eager as she is, maybe more so, but something tells me that pacing
is important. So I take my time, uncoiling the long hank of rope to
lay it out on the couch, measuring with care and cutting four equal
pieces.
“Two
for your arms, two for your legs,” I tell her.
I
gaze at the ropes stretched out and waiting. Pre-cum leaks from my
rigid dick, soaking my pants. Suddenly impatient, I strip, tossing my
clothes into a corner. “You ready, slut?” I growl.
Rachel
bows her head in silent assent.
Unfortunately,
I’m not ready. I’d imagined her bound and immobile on my
bed, where I could stretch her out spread-eagled and fuck her at my
leisure, but now I realize that’s impossible. The bed has no hooks
or bars for affixing the ropes—just a polished wood headboard and
no footboard at all.
I
could try to hog tie her, like in the magazines, but that wouldn’t
give me full access to her body. Or maybe I should drape her over the
ottoman, then bind her wrists and ankles together. That position
would be good for wailing on her ass. I want to see her face, though,
when I make her come.
Damn. I’m such
an amateur.
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