By
G. Lloyd Helm (Guest Blogger)
My
latest book is a literary novel called Serpents and
Doves. It is a book that took forty years to write. It is
about my college experience in the mid-1960's. It is fiction but, as
with all decent fiction, it has a lot of the author in it. The title
comes from the new testament Book of Matthew. When Jesus was first
sending out the disciples out to preach he said, "I send you out
as sheep among wolves, therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as
doves." The novel is about learning what that really means and
about finding wolves in places where there should be sheep.
The mid-1960's were tumultuous. The Vietnam war was the background for
everything though it was easy to forget that in the midst of the
sexual revolution, but the two--sexual revolution and war -- mixed in
the midst of protests. Add in some civil rights protests and there
is more confusion and more spice.
I
was in the middle of much of the protesting, not so much the war as
the civil rights protests. I had many black friends. I had never
experienced that in my pre-college days, but when I got to college I
met many great young men who were all caught up in Dr. King's Civil
Rights movement and those friendships pulled me right along into the
movement as well. I was not a major player, more around the edges,
which put me in a position to observe.
That
of course is what writers do. We observe then shape and record what
we see. My recording/shaping took a long time. I wrote more than a
thousand pages before I really began on Serpents and
Doves. I just couldn't get hold of a starting thread.
I think that is among the hardest thing any writer can do. The old chestnut about fearing the blank page is absolutely true, but from a different angle than most people think. Most writers when they sit down to write have some idea of what they are going to write, but finding that first thread to begin weaving the whole cloth of the story, that is hard.
I
have found that thread for other books and written five including a
volume of short stories, but Serpents and
Doves was particularly difficult, perhaps because it is so
close to my own life. I had to get my mind around how to present the
happenings of my life without libeling any of the people therein.
That's why, if anyone who knew me in those years should read the book, they
are likely to recognize some of the characters with different names
and slightly filed off serial numbers.
My
life since college has been interesting. I have traveled around the
world with my wife and children having lived in Spain, Germany and
Italy as well as Virginia, Indiana, and California. A novel set in
Indiana is probably coming down the pike. I am making notes and
considering things right now but it will get written if I live long
enough. Right at the moment I am concentrating on short stories and
criticism as well as selling books around Southern California.
Blurb
The mid-sixties were turbulent: the Vietnam War, Protests, the Civil Rights movement, and the Sexual Revolution. Stephen Mitchell, a naive California church boy, goes off to school at a small church college in Tennessee, where he learns about sex, betrayal, friendship, and what it really means to be black in the segregated south.
Excerpt
The
cop bent down a bit more and looked at Stephen. “Whose yer uncle
boy,” the cop asked.
“Rev,
Paul Clark sir, West Side Cumberland Church,” Stephen said.
“West
Side, eh? He one of them integration preachers?”
Stephen
was stunned and he didn’t know how to answer. If he lied and said
no the cop was gonna wonder why this single white boy as riding with
these coloreds, and if he said yes the cop might decide to make life
tough for all of them.
“Well
sir,” Stephen began, “He’s just, Uh. I’m going there to help
him serve Thanksgiving to some college students.”
The
cop didn’t like the answer. He blinked at them, rain running off
the patent leather bill of his cap and said, “I think maybe ya’ll
better step on out of the car here,” he said.
“But
officer,” Stephen began and Robert knocked his knee against
Stephen’s, clearly saying shut up.
“Yes
Sir,” Charlie Horse said as he opened his door. The other doors
opened and the young men stepped out. Stephen was boiling, but he
kept his mouth shut.
“Ya’ll
just go ‘head and lean up on the side of the car,” the cop said.
All the black men did as they were told, assuming the position, but
Stephen once more protested. “We didn’t do anything. We were
just driving down the road.”
The
cop did a step through and dropped Stephen to the hard concrete of
the sidewalk on his face. “Don’t you sass me boy, I am the
PO-lice and when I say do something you do it.”
Stephen
was stunned and his nose was bleeding from being bounced on the
concrete. The cop had a knee in the middle of his back and was
patting him down looking for weapons, and as the hands went roughly
over Stephen’s sides one thought kept rolling through his mind,
but, I’m white. I’m white, I’m white.
“Now
you just stay right here boy,” the cop said “while I check your
friends for guns.”
“Pat
them niggers down too, Buford.” He said. “I’m ‘ona search the
car.”
Buford
stepped up to Reg and Bobby and ran is hands perfunctorily down
their sides then made a point of jamming his hand hard between their
legs. Both men winced, but didn’t take their hands off the roof of
the car.
The
first cop, half crawled in the still open doors or the car, turned
off the engine and pulled out the keys to go and open the trunk,
meantime Buford had searched Charlie, Silent Al, and Stan, giving
them the same final squeeze of their testicles. They all stood tight.
“OK
Frank” Buford said, “They clean.”
Frank
came back to Stephen who had done as he had been told and not moved.
There was a growing puddle of watery blood forming where his nose had
dripped to the concrete. Frank poked his toe into Stephen’s ribs,
hard enough to hurt, but not break anything. “Ya oughtenta hang
around with niggers boy. It could get ya killed.”
Stephen
didn’t say anything. The litany of race kept running through his
mind, I’m white, I’m white, I’m white.
“All
Right ya’ll,” Frank said. He bent down and hauled Stephen up by
the collar. “Get on outa here. But don’t you let the sun set on
you in this neighborhood.” He tossed the keys at Charlie.
“Yes
sir,” Charlie Horse said. Everyone got into the car. Charlie hit
the starter and the engine turned and turned, but didn’t catch. He
let the button go then cranked it again. This time the engine
coughed, stubborn because of the wet. He hit it again, the engine
coughed again and caught. After he let it run for a moment he slowly
pulled away from the curb watching the two cops in the rear view
mirror. After a moment he glanced at Stephen in the mirror. “You
alright Steve?”
“Yeah,”
Stephen said, pulling a handkerchief from his pocket and holding it
against his nose.
“Is
it broke?” Robert asked
“Serve
you right it is,” Stan said. “Dumb fuck! Mouth off to a cop.”
“Yeah,
yeah,” Stephen said. The front of his rain coat was stained with
blood. “But we didn’t do anything!”
“Just
like we told ya. Driving while Black, and especially with a honky in
the car.” Reg said. “We damn lucky he didn’t decide we were
agitators or something. Would have jailed us sure or maybe shot us,
but he just decided he’d settle for just hoorahing some niggers.”
Stephen
sighed and said, “I’m sorry fellas, I didn’t know—“
Robert
said, “Yes you did know, because we told you, but now you don’t
just know. Now you understand.”
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About
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G.
Lloyd Helm writes fantasy but fantasy of a different type. In
his work people have to power to stop war by simply saying “stop”
and to change the universe by belief in a system called “the
design.”
Helm has been writing for more than forty years, short stories and three novels. He is currently working on a sequel to his first novel OTHER DOORS. His work harks back to the classic fantasy of the golden age but is as modern as the war in Afghanistan.
G. Lloyd has traveled the world spending ten years in Europe, living in Spain, Germany, and Italy with his wife of forty years. His epitaph will no doubt read, "Ne're do well scribbler, and part time genius. He married Well."
Helm has been writing for more than forty years, short stories and three novels. He is currently working on a sequel to his first novel OTHER DOORS. His work harks back to the classic fantasy of the golden age but is as modern as the war in Afghanistan.
G. Lloyd has traveled the world spending ten years in Europe, living in Spain, Germany, and Italy with his wife of forty years. His epitaph will no doubt read, "Ne're do well scribbler, and part time genius. He married Well."
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