Sunday, November 8, 2020

Steam Punk Sunday - #Steampunk #Fantasy #BDSM #EroticRomance

Steam punk clockwork

To celebrate the imminent release of my new steam punk erotica novel, The Pornographer’s Apprentice, I’m sharing a scene from my last major steam punk work, Rajasthani Moon. This isn’t a particularly erotic scene, but it does highlight some of the gadgets developed by the brilliant and devious Rajah Amir.

Drop by on Tuesday, when I’ll have an excerpt from the new book, and a chance for you to win a copy – even before it’s released!

Neither kink nor curse can stop a woman with a mission.

Cecily Harrowsmith, secret agent extraordinaire, is a woman on a mission. When the remote Indian kingdom of Rajasthan refused to remit its taxes to the Empire, Her Majesty imposed an embargo. Deprived of the energy-rich mineral viridium, essential for modern technology and development, Rajasthan was expected to quickly give in and resume its payments. Yet after three years, the rebellious principality still has not knuckled under. Cecily undertakes the difficult journey to that rugged, arid land in order to determine just how it has managed to survive, and if possible to convince the country to return to the Empire’s embrace. Instead, she’s taken captive by a brigand, who turns out to be the ruler’s half-brother Pratan, and delivered into the hands of the sexy but sadistic Rajah Amir, who expertly mingles torture and delight in his interrogation of the voluptuous interloper.

Cursed before birth by Amir’s jealous mother, Pratan changes to a ravening wolf whenever the moon is full. Cecily uncovers the counter-spell that can reverse the effects of the former queen’s hex and tries to trade that information for her freedom. Drawn to the fierce wolf-man and sympathising with his suffering, she volunteers to serve as the sacrifice required by the ritual—offering her body to the beast. In return, the Rajah reveal Rajasthan’s amazing secret source of energy. In the face of almost impossible odds, Cecily has accomplished the task entrusted to her by the Empire. But can she really bear to leave the virile half-brothers and their colourful land behind and return to the constraints of her life in England?

 

Excerpt

Sarita marched her into an adjoining room to dress. As Cecily donned the peacock blue sari laid out for her, and the matching crystal-studded kid slippers, she wondered again at the apparent prosperity of the Rajasthani realm. Everything she’d seen of the palace—the carved and gilded pillars supporting the ceiling, the intricate mosaics on the floor, the glow globes fashioned of precious metals and inlaid with gems—spoke of wealth and ample resources. Cut off from a supply of viridium, the lifeblood of the modern world economy, Rajasthan should have been desperate and impoverished, or at the very least relying on the most basic and primitive power sources—human and animal. On the contrary, it appeared that Amir and his people possessed some technologies even Her Majesty lacked.

She had to discover how Rajasthan had managed to survive the embargo in such a handy fashion. Perhaps her apparent status as the Rajah’s prisoner might actually make that easier than it would have been had she managed to maintain her cover story.

The dressing room did not feature a mirror. However, Cecily could tell from Sarita’s sour expression that the opulent costume suited her. The silver-embroidered silk clung to her full hips then fell in graceful folds to her trim ankles. The under blouse, a contrasting pale green, hugged her breasts. Her protruding nipples would have been easily visible if not for the loose end of the sari, which draped across her chest and trailed down her back. The gossamer fabric hid them from a casual glance—though perhaps not from someone determined to survey all her charms.

Sarita thrust a carved cinnabar box into her hands. “My Lord Amir bade me give you these,” she said, her tone making it clear how reluctantly she obeyed. Inside Cecily discovered exquisite eardrops of lapis and silver filigree, and matching bangles.

“Does the Rajah treat all his prisoners so generously?” she asked, inserting the wires into her pierced lobes. It was difficult not to sound smug.

“You represent the spoils of war, Miss Harrowsmith. He decorates you to make you appear more valuable—and for his own amusement. Do not become too attached to this finery,” she added, a cruel light flashing in her eyes. “He’ll have you naked and begging for mercy soon enough, I expect.”

Cecily shivered slightly. Given what she knew of women, Sarita might be a more formidable enemy than her master.

“Oh, there’s one more thing we have for you.” The Rajasthani beauty held out what looked like a silvery necklace. Unlike the earrings and bracelets, it was smooth and plain.

“That’s pretty,” Cecily commented, reaching for the gleaming circlet.

Sarita snatched it away. “Perhaps. But practical, too. This collar will keep you here where you belong.”

“What…?”

“Watch.” Sarita unfastened the shutters and held the collar up to the waning light. “Within the palace walls, a simple ornament. But venture even a few inches outside…”She extended her arm through the open window, the collar in her hand. Cecily heard a snick, as though some mechanism had triggered. When Sarita showed her the silver circle again, four vicious-looking metal spines poked from the rim into the interior. Some sort of liquid dripped from the needle-like points onto the floor. “Had you been wearing the collar, poison would already be pouring into your veins through the puncture wounds. You’d be dead in minutes.”

A shudder ran through Cecily’s frame, but her horror was not unmixed with admiration. What a fiendishly clever device! Z would sell his right arm to plumb its secrets.

Sarita manipulated the collar in some way Cecily couldn’t discern. The spikes retracted. After wiping the thing off with a cloth, she beckoned to Cecily. The collar came apart into two half-rings. Sarita approached, clearly intending to encircle Cecily’s neck.

Something like panic seized the secret agent. Once the collar was installed, her chances of escape would dramatically diminish. Sarita was no more than a few inches away, close enough that her jasmine perfume filled Cecily’s nostrils. A knee in the belly, a blow to the carotid, and she’d be immobilised…

“Don’t try anything stupid, Cecily,” the other woman purred, her fingertips soft against Cecily’s throat. “Bhuni is watching your every move. And I can activate the collar with a single touch.” The endpoints of each half-circle sealed together with a click. Cecily’s heart plummeted.

Sarita stood back, pretending to admire her companion. “There. I think you’re finally ready to be escorted into the presence of the Rajah and his royal brother.” She nodded to Bhuni, who clamped down on Cecily’s arm like some automaton and led her towards the door.

“It will be amusing to see how long you manage to survive.”


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Friday, November 6, 2020

Transistor -- #Technology #Nostalgia #Luddite

Transistor radio
 

When I turned ten, I got a really special birthday present, something that I had wanted for months: a transistor radio. It was a box of orange plastic about the size of two cigarette packs, with circular grating over the speaker, a thumb wheel for selecting channels, a faux-leather carrying case and a silvery retracting antenna. I thought that it was the coolest thing I'd ever seen. It had seven transistors!—cutting edge technology for the period. I used that radio to listen to the Beatles, who were just rising into public view. Sometimes, though, I would just sit it on my desk while I was doing my homework and look at it. I couldn't believe it was mine.

That was the last time I fell in love with a piece of technology. As I matured, my studies and my career involved me with various high-tech mechanisms: tachistoscopes and gas chromatographs and of course, all sorts of computers. It was easy for me to see that these machines caused as many problems as they solved. I didn't hate technology, and I certainly didn't avoid it, but I was wary. Technology had a nasty tendency to fail just when you needed it most.

My first laptop was a used IBM Thinkpad with eighty megabytes of disk space and 256K of RAM. I used that computer to write my first novel, Raw Silk. I liked the Thinkpad (which I christened “Descartes”) quite a lot; it was simple, reliable, and had a great keyboard, making it easy and comfortable to type. It weighed a ton and didn't stay up long if it was unplugged, but that was okay. Mostly I didn't need to be mobile. And for my writing, I certainly didn't need something state-of-the-art. Still, when it finally started to die, I replaced it without a pang.

Today, I have a range of gadgets: two cellphones, a tablet, a digital camera, a desktop computer, three laptops that I use for different purposes, and a now-obsolete hand-held GPS receiver we used to use for those trips off the beaten track that so amuse my husband. I have 4G Internet on my phone, but I almost never use it. I don't do mobile email or video or chat or photo-sharing or anything else of that sort, though since the pandemic I do use Zoom on a laptop for my teaching and my meetings. I choose my technology on the basis of function and cost, not fashion or hype. I'm amazed and a bit appalled by the way some people's self-perceptions are determined by the tech stuff that they carry. It's a bit scary. If one of these kids had to choose between saving the life of his best friend or his iPhone, what would he decide?

Then there's the Internet. When the Internet started to become popular, I didn't trust it. I swore that I'd never become dependent on it. I continued to hand-write personal letters to friends and family. I rejected the notion of Internet banking as risky and unnecessary. I used to shop from printed catalogs, filling in the the order forms longhand and sending them by post. I didn't want to find myself in the situation of where I couldn't live without an Internet connection, because I knew how fragile the hardware and software infrastructure really were.

Then I moved overseas and everything changed. I'm dismayed to realized that at this point, living without the 'Net for an extended period would be completely impractical. I pay my bills using the 'Net. I keep in touch with friends. I follow the news. I send e-cards and order gifts for my remote family. My writing career would be dead in the water if I couldn't interact with publishing sites, communicate with my editors and my colleagues, do research, and promote my work using websites, blogs and email lists. The Internet has become as critical for me as electricity.

I'm not happy about this. Generally the network here is moderately fast and reliable, but every so often we lose connectivity for a few hours. By the time it comes back, I'm like an addict; I'll drop everything else to jump online and check my email. A few years ago some undersea cables that form the backbone of the Asia/United States network were severed by an earthquake, creating an outage of several days. I was completely frantic until service was restored.

Clearly I had it right, back when I was determined to remain independent. But what can you do when you live half a world (and a twelve hour time difference) away from the people you need to connect with?

I can deal with new technology. I can even appreciate the incredible advances in capabilities that have become available in a matter of just a few years. But for me, technology is just a tool. Gadgets will not make me beautiful, sexy or rich. I remind myself of that whenever I feel a slight twinge of lust for something new, shiny and battery-powered.

When my brother and I were young kids, we used to make these things we called, for some obscure reason, “time limits”, out of paper, cardboard, bottle caps, ice cream sticks, or whatever other materials came to hand. A time-limit started out as a watch. But then we'd augment it, รก la Dick Tracy, adding (fake) functionality: a radio, a television, an intercom, a camera, even a phonograph. (I remember cutting little circles out of paper and labeling them with the names of the classical records my dad used to play.) We found these all-in-one portable gadgets incredibly exciting. The notion of being able to watch television or listen to music anywhere really intrigued us.

I was reminiscing recently with my brother and pointed out that these days, cell phones and smart watches were basically the equivalent of our time-limits. As my grandmother used to say, what is the world coming to?

I've been thinking, though. You know what would be really cool? To have a phone that looked like my cherished transistor radio.

Now that would turn some heads!


Thursday, November 5, 2020

Every luxury cabin hides a secret... #CozyMystery #Giveaway #MotherInLaw

The Sinister Super-Yacht cover
Blurb

French tycoon Jean-Louis Ponsard is having a bad year. Unwise investments, canceled orders, deals falling through…

In the thick of it, his yacht becomes the scene of a suspicious death, and his year of misfortune hits the bed of the Mediterranean Sea.

To make matters worse, the victim isn't just anybody. She's his much-hated mother-in-law.

Onboard, caterer Julie Cavallo and her quirky grandma Rose do some poking around. But every luxury cabin hides a secret. Every passenger has an alibi or no reason to want the victim dead.

Discretion rules.

The crew keeps mum.

So do the marble countertops, gem-incrusted walls, and gold sinks.

When the cops take charge, things go to pieces, and not only for the Ponsard family.

Can Julie dive to the murky bottom of the sea, unravel the case, and come back up still breathing?

About the Author


 

Ana T. Drew is the evil mastermind behind the recent series of murders in the fictional French town of Beldoc. When she is not writing cozy mysteries or doing mom-and-wife things, she can be found watching “The Rookie” to help her get over “Castle”. She lives in Paris but her heart is in Provence.

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Releases November 20

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Tuesday, November 3, 2020

The embers leap into flame ... #MFRWHooks #MFRWAuthor #EroticRomance

The Heart of the Deal cover

It’s Wednesday – time for another Marketing for Romance Writers Book Hooks hop! Today I’m sharing an excerpt from my BDSM erotic romance The Heart of the Deal. Hope you like it!

When you’re done reading, click on the links at the end to visit the other great authors who are participating in today’s hop!

All's fair in lust and business

Ruby Maxwell Chen, the lovely and ruthless CEO of a sprawling British business empire, has no qualms about playing dirty – very dirty. She’s happy to use sex to help her close a deal, especially when she’s the one on top. Ruby loves the game, and she expects to win. When she encounters the inexplicably charismatic American entrepreneur Rick Martell, though, she wonders if she hasn't finally met her match.
 

From the trendy clubs of London to the Hollywood Hills, Ruby and Rick compete for ownership of a strategic factory in Malaysia. As their struggle for dominance escalates and their mutual lust flares, they draw their employees and associates into their outrageous power games. The stakes could scarcely be higher, as Ruby and Rick play for the ultimate prize: a night of total physical surrender.

 


The Hook

“Rick,” I bark, and he jumps visibly. “Come over here.” He complies, coming to stand next to the guest chair across the desk from me. He moves to seat himself, but I stop him. “I didn’t tell you to sit, did I?” He looks at me, amazed, annoyed, and obviously increasingly excited. He shakes his head. “Then don’t.

“You’re a scoundrel, Rick. A scoundrel and a traitor. Why didn’t you tell me that you knew my father? That you had him convinced you were his friend?”

“I was his friend,” Rick begins. I cut him short with a baleful glare.

“Some friend! Friends don’t take advantage of each other. Friends don’t lie to each other. Friends keep each other’s confidences.”

“What are you talking about?” He sounds confused and defensive.

“The foundry, of course. It was my father who brought it to your attention, showed you its potential. He intended to acquire it for The Maxwell Companies. Then you turn around and stab him in the back by stealing the deal away from him.”

“How…?”

“Never mind. I should have realized a lot sooner that you had inside information, and put two and two together.”

“Liu and I planned to go into business together. The foundry was going to be a joint project.”

“Oh? Why should I believe you?”

“Because it’s true. I can show you the preliminary documents, if you want. Then came the accident, and everything got put on hold. The next thing that I know, you’re talking to Baktar and I’m completely out of the picture. I guess I was pissed off to find myself being ignored. I decided that I needed the fab for myself.”

“Why didn’t my father tell me that he had a partner in the deal? He never even mentioned you.”

Rick gives me a harried look. “I don’t know, Ruby. He talked a lot about you. He planned to send you to Malaysia to do a final inspection of the plant. He wanted me to join you there, to give you a technical briefing.” This, at least, was confirmed by the email I had read. “Maybe he wanted you to form your own conclusions about me. Maybe he thought you’d be jealous, if you knew that he was mentoring me.” A ghost of a grin flits across his irregular features. “He did say that you were hot-blooded, and had a fierce temper…”

“Did he indeed?” I say ironically, trying to keep the misery out of my voice. I’d thought that I knew my father so well, that I was privy to all his secrets. The revelation that he kept things from me, that he had other confidants, is painful. I lean forward, deliberately allowing Martell a glimpse of my cleavage, and look him in the eye. He licks his lips nervously. “So, was he right about me, Rick?”

“I don’t know, Ruby,” he replies softly. “I don’t know you well enough to say.” He pauses, raises his eyes to mine. “But I’d like to.”

I can’t comprehend how it happens. One moment he is standing there across from me, with the desk safely between us. The next, he’s beside me, pulling me to my feet. Kissing me. His wiry arms snake around me, pulling me to his chest. His lips are firm on mine, exploring rather than demanding. His scent swirls around me, dizzying me. The embers smoldering in my sex leap into flame.

“Rick…” I begin, but the taste and texture and presence of him overwhelm me. My objection melts into an inarticulate murmur of pleasure.

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Monday, November 2, 2020

Losing her job is the least of her worries ... #Mystery #Giveaway #ReviewTuesday @Brenda_Gayle

A Shot of Murder Cover
 

Blurb

In 1948, Charley Hall resents giving up her job as city reporter for the Kingston Tribune to a returning soldier. But her demotion to the women’s pages is the least of her worries since Gran is organizing a surprise birthday party for Charley’s older brother, Freddie. Trouble is, Freddie hasn’t come back from his latest bender. When Charley goes looking for him, she discovers the dead body of a woman, last seen with her brother. Beside the murdered woman is a torn newspaper article about local politician Dan Cannon, who also happens to be Charley’s best friend. To make matters worse, a police detective from Toronto shows up and begins nosing around. Charley is not about to stand by and let her brother nor her friend take a fall for a murder based on circumstantial evidence. Not by a long shot.

NOTE: The book is currently on sale for only $0.99.

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08H5K4HMF/

Excerpt

“Don’t scream,” he whispered against her ear. “I’m going to remove my hand now. I want you to be calm.”

Calm? Was he kidding? He’d just kidnapped her. Dragged her into an alley for who knows what nefarious purpose. And he expected her to be calm?

“Okay, now. Just take it easy.” Slowly, he lowered his hand from her face and released his grip on her waist.

Charley turned to face him, fists ready to pummel him, feet ready to kick him where it would really hurt. The scream she’d been about to issue froze in her throat as she found herself staring down the barrel of a .38 Special.

“Mrs. Hall, please. Just calm down.” His voice, no doubt meant to be soothing, was rough, like sandpaper across her ears—almost as if he hadn’t spoken in a long time.

He knows who I am!

Her heart was racing. In all the years she’d worked for the Trib, she’d gotten herself into her fair share of jams with people who’d been angry about something she’d written, but never had she faced anything like this. Never had she been so afraid in her life.

The clouds had cleared, and the just-past-full moon provided considerable light. He wasn’t all that tall—maybe five-ten. But he was broad. Powerful. He was wearing a dark overcoat and a dark felt hat with its brim pulled low to cover the top part of his face. She couldn’t see his eyes, but his nose looked slightly off-centre and his mouth was set in a stern line. She lowered her gaze to the gun. “Who are you? What do you want?”

“First things first. I need your word you’re not going to start screaming your fool head off if I lower my gun.”

Her was brain trying to figure out if she could make it out of the alley before he had time to raise it again, take aim and fire. Her legs felt like lead and she could barely catch her breath. Escape was unlikely. “Fine.”

“Fine, what?”

Really, he was going to make her say it? No point crossing her fingers this time. She knew she was going to keep to her word. “Fine, I won’t scream if you lower your gun.”

Review by Lisabet Sarai

All through the war, while brave Canadian boys were off battling Hitler, Charley Hall – nรฉe Charlotte Stormont – held down the News Desk at the Kingston Tribune. Aside from being a crack writer, she’s persistent, persuasive, clever and a bit pushy – but then, when you’re digging up a story, you can’t afford to be a shrinking violet. With the troops coming home from the front, though, the females who very capably assumed their jobs are being forced back into their traditional roles. Much to her dismay, Charley’s boss wants to give her news writer position to a man, and have her take over the women’s pages. Her society grandmother, whose family founded the paper, agrees.

Meanwhile, Charley’s brother Freddie, a sensitive young man with a serious weakness for alcohol, has disappeared. While looking for him, Charley stumbles upon a blood-soaked murder scene. Nobody local knows the deceased woman, reportedly named Mary Brown, and no one has any leads on the apparent sharpshooter who precisely pierced her carotid artery, but the bloody footprint left on the porch is too small to belong to a man.

Charley is focused on finding her brother. Solving the murder isn’t her primary intention. However, as she tries to track him down, the trail leads her back to the murdered woman, as well as to a former boyfriend, now an ambitious politician, and his elite parents. Meanwhile a surly, suspicious police detective from Toronto dogs her steps, interfering in her research but occasionally saving her hide. Eventually she puts all the pieces together and rushes off to save Freddie, well aware that she might be too late.

A Shot of Murder is a delightful read. Ms. Gayle brings the unconventional heroine to vivid life, with dialogue that crackles and a strong sense of the comic. Even minor characters like Charley’s curmudgeon boss Sherman and the bumbling domestique Chantal feel real and memorable. The story is firmly situated in both time and place. Though I don’t know Kingston, Ontario, at all, I managed to get a sense of both its neighborhoods and its social strata. A few historic details – the manual typewriter, the telephone in Charley’s room, Grandmother Stormont’s disapproval of Charley’s wearing trousers – along with references to the horrors of World War II – helped cement the historical background. I haven’t read that many recent tales set in this period, but in fact the social conflicts of the time play an important role in delineating Charley’s personality and predicament.

I should also mention that the book design and editing are impeccable. In this day of sloppily assembled ebooks, I really appreciate the care that clearly went into this book’s production.

The mystery plot struck me as a bit implausible, mainly because almost every character ends up being intimately involved. I suppose this might be viewed as a weakness. However, that didn’t diminish my enjoyment. I was reading because I enjoyed hanging out with Charley, not because I really cared “who dunnit”. On the other hand, I would love to see her take on a more realistic and intellectually challenging mystery. She has the potential to be a top-notch literary sleuth.

All in all, A Shot of Murder is great entertainment. I’ll keep my eyes out for the next Charley Hall mystery.

About the Author

Life is messy and I try to reflect that in my stories while still leaving readers with a feeling of hope. I want them to see themselves and people they know in my characters.

You could say writing is in my genes. My paternal grandmother was a formidable diarist; my father was a journalist and poet; my sister and cousin are both published authors; even my son has shown a talent for putting pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) to tell awesome stories. So, it came as no surprise to anyone when I returned to my love of fiction after more than 20 years in the world of corporate communications–although some might argue there was plenty of opportunity for fiction-writing there, too.

A fan of many genres, I find it hard to stay within the publishing industry’s prescribed boxes. Whether it’s mystery, romantic suspense or women’s fiction—my greatest joy is creating deeply emotional books with memorable characters and compelling stories.

I love hearing from readers. You can connect with me via my website at BrendaGayle.com (https://brendagayle.com/)

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Sunday, November 1, 2020

Vlad's Lament – #Vampire #Nosferatu #PopularCulture

Vlad Tepes

Image by Cosmin Genete

[I know Halloween is over... but I found this in my archives and couldn’t resist sharing]

Pity me.

I am humanity's blackest nightmare. I am the silent and invincible evil that steals upon you as you sleep and drags you to hell. I have the devil's strength. I might tear open your tender throat with my fangs, or rip your heart, still beating, from your chest, but that is not why I am to be feared. Death is the least of the dangers you face when I waft like smoke under your door or beat my leathery wings against your window.

You would beg for the quiet void of death, if you truly understood what I bring you instead. Along with your life-blood, I siphon off your soul. I leave you an empty husk, an eternal creature who is nothing but embodied appetite. The most ravaged drug addict is fortunate compared to what I will make of you. No thought but the thought of blood. No emotion but the craving for the salt and iron taste as the viscous fluid of life slides down your throat. Consumed by the need for blood, every action directed toward satisfying a thirst that can never be assuaged. Centuries may pass, civilizations rise and fall, but my victims never notice. They are dumb beasts in the grip of an inexorable compulsion to kill and drink and kill again.

I am different, as you can tell. I was the first. I have some intelligence remaining. I have in fact become more crafty and more cruel over the thousand odd years since my change. Indeed, calling it a "change" seems like a mistake. I did not change, when I slipped over the door sill of death into eternal monster-hood. I became more of what I was already: more vicious, more sadistic, with a deepened contempt for frail and ridiculous humankind. I was always blood thirsty, though perhaps not so literally as now.

I ask your pity, but not because I am the product of forces beyond my control. I am not a victim of circumstances. I am not tortured by remorse. I recall my bloody centuries with intense pleasure. I make no excuses for the thousands of souls I've stolen, the legions of loathsome, blood-addicted vermin I've left in my wake. I am beyond redemption, and I like it that way. Do not believe that the love of God, man or woman can save me.

Still, I seek your sympathy, and why? Somehow, while I 've been amusing myself, feasting on your juicy flesh, gleefully snuffing out the meager intelligence of my despised prey, my own soul has been purloined and perverted. People still speak of me, in hushed and reverent tones, but no longer do I inspire the terror that is my due.

No, now pubescent girls and middle-aged housewives masturbate to the thought of my fangs grazing their throat. They imagine me as tall, young, clean-shaven, muscle-bound, with mysteriously pale skin that sparkles in the sun and hypnotic dark eyes from which they cannot hide their lascivious thoughts. They picture themselves swooning in my arms as I simultaneously lap at their blood and drive my preternaturally rigid cock deep into their sex.

Ha! What would they think if they saw my barrel chest, my swarthy complexion (though I will never again look upon the sun), my bushy black eyebrows, rotted teeth (aside from my fangs) and hooked nose? I am as I was when I changed: a middle-aged Slavic warrior, shorter than average, with bowed legs from riding and powerful arms that can decapitate a man (or woman) in a single stroke. My incorruptible cock still rises, but it's the scent of gore that makes me hard.

I care not a whit for the beauty of woman (or man). What I lust after is your fear, your horror, your disgust. And now, that is denied me. Battalions of counterfeit blood drinkers assail me, everywhere I turn. They pass as high school kids, rock stars, cops and mafiosos. They walk among humans and share humanity's weaknesses: affection, compassion, guilt. No longer do the undead rise from their earth-filled coffins, stinking of carrion and decay. They wear Armani suits and Calvin Klein cologne.

And they take human mates! What an insult! What mortal could understand the exquisite satisfaction of feeling their own skin tear and their blood gush into my waiting mouth? What human woman would beg to be "turned" if she understood that an eternal life as a vampire is nothing but an endless, empty quest for the next fix?

I am Nosferatu, Vlad the Impaler, an ancient terror. I am pure evil and proud of it. Alas, I have been emasculated, neutralized, turned into a twisted, misdirected, romantic hero who needs only the love of a good woman to rescue him from his pitiable past.

Pity me, then. No miserable, puny human is strong enough to destroy me. But human culture has come close.

 

And the winners are.... #Giveaway #Halloween #Prizes

Cute witch

Happy Sunday!

It’s difficult to believe that it is the first of November. The Halloween season is now, alas, over. Time to start planning next year’s costume...

Anyway, I have drawn the winners in my big giveaway.

  • $10 gift certificate – Karinski

  • $5 gift certificate – Anne

  • Free book of your choice – BN100, Joye, James, Emma & Fiona

I’ve sent you all an email message. Please reply and let me know, if you won a GC, whether you want Amazon, Smashwords or Totally Bound, as well as where (to what email) I should send it.

If you won a book, you can pick any title from here:

https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/LSarai

Or from here:

http://www.excessica.com/books/index.php?main_page=index&manufacturers_id=123

In addition, in case you’re still in a Halloween mood, my friend Michael Swanson is offering PDF versions of his horror titles:


https://www.amazon.com/Angel-Baby-Michael-Swanson-ebook/dp/B08HSN6PDC/


https://www.amazon.com/Evil-Heights-Michael-Swanson/dp/1603814531/


https://www.amazon.com/Ambient-Michael-Swanson-ebook/dp/B00EXR4APW


I’ve read The Angel Baby – it’s really scary!

Let me know what title you want, and if it is one of my books, your preferred format (pdf, mobi or epub).

Thanks to everyone you participated in the giveaway. I hope you had as much fun as I did!