Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

How can she reclaim her life when she’s lost her faith? #AngelsAndDemons #PNR #TheGarguiem

Jericho cover


The Garguiem

An ancient order secretly working to fight evil and corruption within the Catholic Church through faith, duty and love

Blurb

She’s a tragic heroine, lost in the dark after a heartbreaking mission. He’s a man in love, determined to rescue his wife from the depths of her depression.

Isaac may be part of an ancient organization that’s been combatting evil for millennia, but he isn’t a warrior. Gifted—or cursed—with an infallible memory, he’s more useful behind a computer, hacking records and coordinating operations, but his family has stumbled onto a threat to the Catholic Church that just might reach the highest levels. Isaac has a single clue to lead him forward, but getting any more information requires finding the courage to join the fight of his life.

A year ago, Jericho walked away from nearly everything after her service to the cause asked too much of her, demanding a price too high to pay, a sacrifice she couldn’t live with. Now her husband is asking for more. Isaac wants her back—back on the team, back in the field and back in his bed—but how can she reclaim her life when she’s lost her faith?

Excerpt

The sound of his palm slapping the wall came a heartbeat before the overhead light flared. Weak yellow illumination, a faint buzzing sound. The light’s enclosure was beyond dirty, an unnatural filter that kept the radiance dim, but it was still enough to burn Jericho’s eyes.

And slice through her sanity.

Screaming like a wounded animal, she folded over her lap and slid off the chair. Throwing an arm over her head, she struggled to hide and fought to find some semblance of composure, but the exposure was too much. Her reaction was a beast of its own making, beyond her control, rampaging freely. Oxygen ripped from her lungs and her stomach burned under a wash of acid that climbed her throat.

Then Isaac’s arms were around her. Desperate, she turned her face into the damp leather covering his chest and denied the flash of need that exploded in her heart. Jericho was torn between pushing closer to fill her senses with one last immersion in all things Isaac, and pulling away so he couldn’t feel the texture of her skin, or the limp greasiness of her hair.

“Easy,” he soothed her. “Just be easy.”

“Go. Please go.”

“I can’t, Jericho. Now that I’ve found you, I won’t leave. I…can’t.”

“How?” She did try to push from his embrace then, but her muscle weakness didn’t let her get far. Isaac held her easily, not even exerting force. She tucked her head down, hoping the limp clumps of her hair hid her face. “How did you find me?”

“You received a letter a long time ago with a change of address on it.” Bitterness filled his sharp laugh. “It took a while to find my courage and come.”

“You shouldn’t have.”

“I should have come sooner,” he argued. “Then maybe you would have found your courage, too.”

“This isn’t about—” Using every ounce of willpower at her disposal, Jericho wrenched from her husband’s hold and lunged toward the wall. On her hands and knees, her movements were jerky and awkward, much too revealing, but she couldn’t help herself. She reached for the light switch.

Isaac caught her shoulder and hauled her back against his chest. She dropped her chin, letting her hair hide her. “Does the light hurt your eyes?” he asked.

“Yes.”

“Do I hurt your eyes too, Jericho?”

Strength deserted her. The last gasp of sanity blew through her lungs with an agonizing burn. Her heart seemed to collapse in on itself. Unable to breathe or make a sound past the pain, she simply shook her head.

“Then look at me.”

She shook her head again, squeezing her eyes closed, tucking her chin until her neck ached.

“Who are you hiding from, Jericho?”

When she remained silent, Isaac pressed his lips close to her ear, burrowing through her dirty hair until his rough whisper abraded her skin. “Who the fuck do you think was at your side in the hospital? You really think I haven’t seen your face?”







About Lola White

Delve into the emotions, dive into the erotic.

An extensive traveler who loves to incorporate various legends from around the world into her tales, author Lola White likes to twist reality at its edges in her stories. She likes delving into the emotions of her characters, finding their strengths and weaknesses and seeing how they get themselves out of whatever trouble has found them—if they can.


Monday, November 4, 2013

You Get What You Need

I got an email from my sister today. She just returned from a trip overseas, ten days intensive training for a new job she was expecting to take. Then when she returned home, she was told that they didn't want her after all - that she wasn't right for their organization. (She has no idea why, unless it's because she's honest and outspoken.)

She's trying to stay positive, and jokes about having received an all-expenses-paid trip to Europe (which she did enjoy, despite the hard work), but I can tell she's a bit depressed, and worried about money. As for me, I see it as the hand of Good working in her life. She hesitated for a long time before agreeing to take this position. The only reason she agreed was financial. It was going to be high-stress and from a personal perspective, low rewards - work that didn't really allow her to use her creativity and her unique talents.

I'd urged her to refuse, telling her to have faith - that the right job would come. One thing I've learned in life is that you can't be happy if you hate your work. At the moment, I feel sympathy for her sense of insecurity (and of course nobody likes to be rejected), but personally I'm grateful. I think she would have been wasting herself on that job, and ultimately, it would have taken its toll on her spirit.

I do believe we get what we need. Even the tragic or unpleasant parts of life turn out to have benefits in the long term. I remember, for instance, a period of 18 months unemployment, two recessions ago. I was terrified that we'd lose our house, but we managed (somehow). And that was the impetus that pushed us to move to our current location, where I'm extremely happy.

You just never know. So you have to trust.

Meanwhile, I've got Sis in my thoughts and prayers. I'm looking forward to hearing her good news.