Wednesday, April 9, 2025

A story inspired by a poem – #LGBTQ #HistoricalRomance #NationalPoetryMonth #MFRWHooks

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Did you know that April is National Poetry Month?

Having written many poems during my lifetime, I appreciate how much poorer the world would be without poetry. Of course, there’s not a hard line between poetry and prose. The music of language works to elevate both.

For today’s Book Hooks, I’m sharing a bit from my historical lesbian romance story By Moonlight. This book was inspired by the classic poem The Highwayman by Alfred Noyes. I don’t recall when I first read this poem, but I’m sure it was during my elementary school years. The imagery, the drama and the tragic romanticism all spoke to me.

The wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees.   

The moon was a ghostly galleon tossed upon cloudy seas.   

The road was a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moor,   

And the highwayman came riding—

         Riding—riding—

The highwayman came riding, up to the old inn-door.

In my version of this tale, the highwayman is in fact a woman in man’s garb. And because this is romance, I’ve spun the a happy ending for my lovers. I haven't skimped on the drama, though!

Here’s a bit from the middle of the story.

And I do hope, if you’re not familiar with the poem, that you’ll go check it out after reading my excerpt.

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The Hook

Bess strained at her restraints, even though she knew her struggling was futile. Terror and fury mingled in her breast. How dare he touch her? She belonged to Kit, body and soul.

As he fiddled with his trousers, she realized that her current position offered some protection. Though her would-be assailant did not as yet seem to understand this, it would be close to impossible for him to penetrate her cunny while she was seated and bound. At very least he’d have to untie her ankles in order to lift her hips off the chair. If he did, she’d be ready to deliver a solid kick to the bollocks.

He reached for her. She shrank away. A knock froze them both in place. In its wake came silence. The raucous commotion from the common room had died away.

A second knock set her attacker back in motion. He whirled in the direction of the sound. “Who’s there?” he growled. “Go away!”

Excuse me, sir.” Bess was astonished to hear a woman’s voice, with a thick Devon accent. “Your friend sent me up with some ale for you.”

Oh, well! That’s a different story.” He flipped Bess’s dress down to cover her thighs, then turned her back toward the window before opening the door.

Bess craned her neck so that she could see the entrance. A stranger stood on the threshold, a maid of perhaps two and twenty. She wore an apron over her brown homespun gown, which was cut less modestly than the one Bess wore. The woman’s plaits were coiled above her ears. In one hand, she carried a lighted taper, in the other, one of the inn’s earthenware tankards. The candle cast a cone of light on the woman’s bosom, but left her face mostly in shadow. Bess had a brief impression of prominent cheekbones and a sharp chin, before the newcomer set both her burdens on top of the cupboard.

I’d heard you were thirsty, sir,” she said, her respectful tone not quite consistent with her jaunty posture. “And that you had need of light.”

True on both counts.” The soldier grinned, reached for the flagon and took a generous swallow. “I’d expected Jack,” he said evenly, setting the ale down. “But you’re a welcome substitute, wench.”

Grasping her by the wrist, he drew the mysterious barmaid into the room then used his foot to nudge the door closed. Bess felt some surprise that the girl didn’t resist, especially when the redcoat wrapped his arms around her body and pulled her to his chest.

Now that you’re here,” he murmured, burying his face in her neck. “I hope you’ll stay for a bit.”

The next events unfolded so quickly that Bess could scarcely follow what was happening. As he tried to kiss the woman in his arms, his murmur of satisfaction transformed to a cry of pain. The man crumpled to the floor, a dagger embedded in his chest. “Damned harlot!” he gasped. He writhed at the stranger’s feet for a moment, then lay still.

Ignorant brute,” she responded, her voice dripping with scorn. She poked him with her boot. When he did not stir, she crouched by his side, pulled the knife from his chest, and wiped it on the soldier’s scarlet coat. The gem-studded grip of her weapon glittered in the flickering candlelight.

At least the blood won’t show,” she said lightly. Her rural accent had vanished, to be replaced by familiar Gallic-tinged tones.

Kit! How in the world—?”

Later, my sweet.” Her savior was already kneeling at Bess’s feet, sawing at the ankle ropes. “We must be away before the King’s dogs awaken and come after us.” She cast a wry glance over her shoulder, at the body on the floor. “Though there’s at least one who won’t be joining the chase.” Her well-honed blade made short work of the soldiers’ bonds.

Finally free, Bess rose on wobbly legs and flowed into the outlaw’s arms. Kit’s familiar warmth engulfed her. Bess leaned against the slender, road-toughened body she knew so well, breathing in Kit’s scent of earth and spice and reveling in the sense of rightness. Yet at the same time it felt strange to embrace her bandit beloved, dressed as Kit was in the layers and skirts of a woman.

Their lips met in a fiery kiss. The terror and anxiety of the past hours evaporated like dew in the sun. The outlaw’s bold tongue claimed her mouth. Meanwhile Kit’s clever hands swept along Bess’s back then down to her buttocks. Even through her coarse clothing, Bess felt supple fingers kneading her flesh and the firm pressure of Kit’s pubis against her own.

She sighed, sagging against her lover’s breasts. “Take me, I beg you. Wash away that wretch’s foul taint.” Her own fingers struggled to untie Kit’s apron and pull her bodice out from her waist.

Nay, my sweet. There’s no time.” With a last brush of her lips across Bess’s forehead, Kit disentangled herself and set Bess aside. “We must be away before the redcoats come to their senses.”

What do you mean?” Bewildered and bereft, Bess sank back into the chair.

You’ll see. Have you things you can’t bear to leave behind? If so, gather them now. And your warmest cloak as well. ’Tis chilly upon the moors.” Kit grabbed Bess by the wrists and pulled her to her feet. “Quickly, girl! Just things that can’t be replaced. I’ve plenty of coin for anything else.”

Bess surveyed her humble quarters. There was little enough of value. As always, she wore her mother’s locket, with its miniature likeness and the curl of jet-black hair. She slipped her woolen cape off its peg and swung it around her shoulders. “I don’t need anything,” she said finally. “As long as I have you.”

 

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Monday, April 7, 2025

Love, sacrifice, and a devastating secret – #NewRelease #HighDrama #EnemiesToLovers

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Blurb

There was a time when Caroline would’ve done anything for her former sweetheart, Eric Martin.

That’s why she agreed to marry him.

Six years ago, Caroline faced a dire ultimatum from Eric’s mother. Marry Eric, and Stacy—Eric’s conniving girlfriend—gets the life-saving operation she needs. Out of love, Caroline agreed, hoping that in time, she and Eric would be able to rekindle the spark they once shared.

But that hope was in vain. Since that fateful day, Eric has harbored nothing but brutal resentment for Caroline; the last six years of marriage have been a nightmare.

As their marriage descends deeper into emotional warfare, Caroline receives a shocking, tragic diagnosis of her own.

While Caroline quietly prepares for the end, an all-too-familiar face returns—with a devastating secret to reveal.

With time running out, the question remains: Will Eric finally see Stacy for who she is, or will everything fall apart before Caroline’s last breath?

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Excerpt

If I could run away from Stacy without looking like a loser, I would, wanting only to put the past behind me forever.

Slugging her would also be great for all the shit she brought into my life.

Steeled against whatever she intends to dish out, I face her, my emotions hidden behind indifference I’d show an annoying stranger.

I lift my chin and look down my nose at her. “Were you speaking to me?”

She blinks at my cold tone and question, her confidence shaken.

Score one for me.

Uh… yeah.” Her smile wobbles, confusion in her eyes. “I didn’t expect to see you here so I said hi.” She laughs self-consciously. “Hi. Long time no see, right?”

I frown. “Do I know you?”

Another blink. Her cheeks redden. I suppose with the same embarrassment I felt around her. Eric, too, when they pawed each other or kissed in my presence.

Yeah, we do know each other.” She clears her throat. “It’s me, Stacy.”

I don’t react.

Frowning, she speaks through her teeth. “Stacy Hill.”

I pretend to think about that then shrug. “No wonder I didn’t recognize you. You’ve changed.”

What?” Hand to her chest, she titters. “No I haven’t. I’m the same old Stacy. Looking as good as ever.”

If you say so.”

She wrinkles her nose. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

God, I love yanking her chain. Despite my urge to simply lie down, I put on the act of my life. “Your hair’s thinner than I recall.” I drag my gaze down her then up. “You’ve also gained weight.”

She steps back. “The hell I have.”

Don’t worry. Six years will do that to some women.”

Pure hatred for me flashes in her eyes. At one time her disdain would have bothered me. At this point, I couldn’t care less. To be honest, I’m waiting for her to leave.

She remains and crosses her arms over her chest… a protective gesture.

What are you doing in this hospital?” She taps her foot, waiting for my answer.

I’d cut out my tongue before telling her anything personal. Knowing her, she’d use the information to destroy me. She’s good at turning love into hate.

My turn for a question.” I tilt my head to one side. “Why are you back… invading this space?”

Her face pales. I’m not surprised. In the past, I was never direct. Nice worked better for me. No more.

She sizes me up as if she’s uncertain where I’m coming from. Then her gorgeous face grows ugly with her signature venom.

Surely you can’t be that dense. You know why I’m here.”

I can guess, or be honest and tell her the truth. I prefer to play with her feelings as she did with mine.

I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

Eric, dammit.” Fists clenched, she steps toward me. “I’m here for him. If it wasn’t for you, he and I would already be married.”

I stroke my wedding ring, proof Eric belongs to me… at least in the eyes of the state. She notices the gesture.

If you say so, Stacy.”

She curls her upper lip. “From what I hear, Eric regrets your marriage.”

I thought you regretted it.”

Her eyes widen, then narrow. “Pretend all you want with me, I know the truth. Eric loathes you.”

My stomach cramps. Unwilling to give her the upper hand, I fight my sorrow, offering no reaction.

Confusion flares in her eyes, then pure meanness. “Maybe he wouldn’t still hate you after all these years if you hadn’t cheated on him.”

Stunned, I gape then shake from rage.

Are you serious? You can’t be.” I get in her space. “I never cheated on him and you damn well know it. I’m not you, Stacy. I’ll never sink as low as you.”

She laughs softly. “Does Eric know that?”

He’s clueless when it comes to her, and she’s fully aware of it.

The gloves were off before, now my claws are out.

Have you forgotten the part about you cheating on him? I was there, Stacy. I saw what you did. Guess he doesn’t know about that, huh? Did you lie your way out of the problem?” My voice is vicious. “Wonder what he’d say if I let it slip how you whored around on him.”

Go ahead.” Her smile couldn’t be more smug. “He’ll never believe you over me. I made sure of it.”

I’m not surprised by her comment, but something about it nags me. A matter I’ve forgotten and need to recall… or ask her about.

How can you be so sure he’ll believe you?”

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Praise for Love Me After My Death

FIVE STARS - AMAZON

"WONDERFUL TEAR JERKER"

This one broke my heart in all the right ways. A great read.

~ Carol J.

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"FANTASTIC"

Read it all in one weekend! Loved entering their world on a deeper level. The ReelShort adaptations are the best.

~ Sam

About the Author

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Tina’s an Amazon and international bestselling novelist who writes passionate romance for every taste – ‘heat with heart’ – for traditional publishers and indie. Booklist, Publisher’s Weekly, Romantic Times and numerous online sites have praised her work. She’s won Readers’ Choice Awards, was named a finalist in the EPIC competition, received a Book of the Year award, The Golden Nib Award, awards of merit in the RWA Holt Medallion competitions, and second place in the NEC RWA contests. She’s featured in the Novel & Short Story Writer’s Market. Before penning romances, she worked at a major Hollywood production company in Story Direction.

On a less serious note: she’s an admitted and unrepentant chocoholic, brakes for Mexican restaurants, and has been known to moan like Meg Ryan in When Harry Met Sally while wolfing down tostadas. She’s flown a single-engine airplane (freaking scary), rewired an old house using an ‘electricity for dummies’ book, and is horribly shy despite the hot romances she writes.

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Friday, April 4, 2025

“Más. More.” #DarkRomance #NewRelease #MafiaRomance

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Coming April 8th from Amber Daulton. Searingly passionate dark romance that will leave you breathless!

Blurb

A drug lord on the run. A cartel princess in hiding. All it takes is a spark to set their world ablaze.

Bristol Rieger left his criminal life behind for a fresh start in Mexico. Flying under the radar of the government and the cartels alike, his best-laid plans go awry when a woman from his narco days discovers his whereabouts. Carmen Lozano, however, is no longer the innocent girl he remembers.

Carmen escaped the chains of her tiara and her abusive marriage to join a group of resistance fighters. The last thing she expected was the now-retired capo setting out to seduce her with his wicked touch. Embracing the blood on his hands is easy, but his secrets wear on her patience.

When their enemies close in, Bristol will have to summon his inner monster to protect her. But can that monster be tamed again?

Book one is an Interracial (Hispanic woman/white man) dark romance novel in the Lozano Cartel series. All the books can be read as a standalone, but are part of an interconnected series.

Scenes featuring torture/violence, kidnapping, attempted assault, infertility issues, child abuse (discussed), and suicide (discussed) may be uncomfortable for some readers.

No cheating and HEA guaranteed!

Written in 3rd POV.

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Excerpt (Adult)

Carmen trailed her lips down his chest and nibbled on his hard nipples before she dropped back to her knees.

Every nerve ending in his body twitched. Her mouth enclosed over his cock with all the skill of a seductress out to get what she wanted. Finally. It was about damn time he met a woman as ravenous as him. He fisted her hair with one hand and gripped the post for leverage with the other. He trembled all the way down his legs. She tugged his heavy ball sac so damn gently that he cursed. Hunger gnawed in his veins. Everything about her drove him insane—her smile, her melodic laughter, her mouthwatering body, even her godawful singing. Fucking hell. He needed inside her. Now! On the verge of shooting a liquid cannonball, he jerked her back up.

She moaned and blinked rapidly, her mouth slack.

He hauled her onto his shoulder and stomped toward a haystack.

Oh!” Carmen giggled, clinging to his back. “No one has ever picked me up before. I’m tall for a woman. Most men cannot find the right leverage to lift me.”

He snorted. She couldn’t be more than five-feet-ten. The weaklings she’d welcomed into her bed deserved the slice of his blade for damn sure. He settled her on the edge of a waist-high hay bale and slid into heaven. Sparks danced in his vision. Her sharp gasp pierced his eardrums. Pressure pounded through him as he gripped her hips and thrust hard. The clench of her legs around his waist spurred him on. Her pussy convulsed around him, milking and demanding everything he had to give—and then some.

¡Ay, Dios mío! That’s so good, Bristol. Más. More.”

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Amber Daulton is the author of the
Lozano Cartel, the Arresting Onyx, and the Ramseys in Time series, as well as several standalone novellas. Her books are published through Daulton Publishing, The Wild Rose Press, and Books to Go Now, and are available in ebook, print on demand, audio, and foreign language formats.

She lives in North Carolina with her husband and demanding cats.

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Wednesday, April 2, 2025

Take your chances as they come - #MFRWHooks #LGBTQ #VietNam

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Since readers seemed to enjoy my excerpt from last week’s Asian Adventure, I’m sharing a bit from another story in the series, Dragon Boat Blues. This MMF romance is set among the famed islands of Ha Long Bay, Viet Nam, and features a disabled heroine.

Hope you enjoy it!

Blurb

Take your chances as they come

My lost superhero Josh had jet black hair, movie star cheekbones, clever hands, the devil’s mouth, and an instinct for driving me crazy. Josh believed in his own myths. He was forty miles an hour over the speed limit that day, more powerful than a locomotive, when we smashed into the tractor trailer. He blew out like a candle. I sputtered in a sort of half life, year after year, marked forever by that brief dance with insanity.

I booked the dragon boat cruise on Ha Long Bay to use up a few free days at the end of my business trip, figuring my disability wouldn’t be a problem on the luxurious junk. I wasn’t looking for companionship, just a bit of peace. But when British honeymooners Stan and Phil welcomed me into their circle of love, I discovered how much healing I still needed.

The Hook

Lunch was undeniably festive. All twenty or so passengers sat around a single long table. Aside from the Chinese contingent, the Brits and me, there was an elderly Polish couple who didn’t seem to speak English, and two French teenagers who undoubtedly could, but didn’t.

I sat between Stan and Phil, eating fresh spring rolls and lemongrass pork, drinking some very presentable cabernet and laughing at their stories about their farm. It came out that Stan had been a Londoner too, a banker, before hooking up with Phil, but he’d always dreamed of living in the country.

Now we’ve got the country life in spades,” said Phil. “It’s bloody hard work, I’ll tell you that. But it makes Stan happy.” He reached behind me to squeeze his lover’s hand. Their obvious delight in one another’s company made me ache with loneliness.

Still, the luscious food, the wine and the pleasant companionship had improved my mood by the time the meal concluded. The guide—Van Binh was his name, I recalled—rose to stand at the head of the table, clinking a spoon against a water glass.

Good afternoon, everyone.” Like most of the Vietnamese I knew, he was slightly built and wiry. Despite the humidity, he wore a long-sleeved business shirt buttoned at the cuffs and collar. “I hope you enjoyed your lunch.” One of the Chinese translated for his friends, and they all applauded. “This afternoon, we will cruise through some of the two thousand islands on our way to visit Trinh Nu and Sung Sot caves. Trinh Nu, or Virgin Cave, is a famous place for lovers. And beautiful Sung Sot truly deserves its nickname of Amazing Cave. Both are on the same island. We will anchor in the bay, then take a smaller boat to the shore.”

Oh, dear, Lydia.” Stan turned to me. “Are you going to have trouble with that?”

We can carry you, if necessary,” added Phil with a chuckle.

I’m sure it won’t be.” I couldn’t help grinning at their energy. “Thanks for the offer, but I’m used to doing things on my own.”

I was, too. I’d had more than seven years to learn.

The guide continued outlining our itinerary. After the caves, there’d be kayaking—definitely not for me—and swimming. The following morning we’d be taken on a trip through the mangroves to a third cave, Thien Long and in the afternoon, visit famous Cát Bà National Park. It all sounded pretty strenuous. Well, I could always stay onboard and read the thriller I’d picked up at the airport.

After Van finished his spiel, most of the passengers moved to the front of the boat to enjoy the view. I settled into a chair under a red and gold striped awning. From my shady seat, I had a fine view of the craggy limestone formations that erupted from the gleaming water on either side. Some were bare rock, but many were carpeted in vivid green. Lush growth clung to fissures in the gray stone—prickly shrubs, stunted trees, and tangled vines that hung over precipices like verdant lace curtains. Some islets were shaped like teeth of the dragon that gave this bay its name. Others recalled elephants, turtles, rabbits, even the symmetry of a woman’s breasts.

Truly, the scene was as magical as the tour agency had promised. Mellow from the wine, I relaxed and let the glorious landscape slide by. A cool breeze dried my sweat. When we passed one of the formations, close enough that I could see birds nesting in the hollows halfway up the green cliff, the spicy scent of some herb reached my nostrils.

We threaded our way among the dramatic outcrops, the still surface of the bay mirroring their irregular forms. Though other junks kept pace with ours on either side, there was little noise. A sense of peace and well-being enveloped me.

Phil and Stan sat side by side on a bench in the narrow angle at the very front, leaning against the base of the magnificent carved dragon that formed the ship’s prow. They didn’t touch. Nevertheless, even at a few yards distance, I sensed the magnetism drawing them together. I would not have called either of them handsome, but their aura of happiness made them appealing to watch.

Stan was probably in his mid-forties, I guessed. Phil looked at least ten years younger. There was nothing effeminate about either one.

Big without being fat, Stan moved with the solid confidence of a man who was comfortable in his own skin.

His lean, loose-limbed partner radiated a physicality that made me think of a tennis player or a runner. He gestured expansively and laughed often, never quite still. It was difficult for me to imagine Phil cooped up in an office.

Stan noticed I was watching. He smiled and pointed to an empty seat next to him. I grinned back, shaking my head. I was far too comfortable to move.

Before long, a much larger island loomed ahead. Two thickly forested capes reached out like arms to embrace us. Our ship slipped between them, into the sheltered lagoon they enclosed. The crew scuttled about, releasing the anchor, partially furling the scarlet sails and readying the dinghy at the stern. I was pleased to discover that the smaller boat could be raised and lowered by a pair of winches. That would make excursions much less of a problem for me.

Indeed, getting to the shore was a snap. With the help of a sturdy gangplank and a permanent dock, not to mention Phil’s strong hand, I clambered out of the dinghy without difficulty.

The guide led us up a narrow path through the forest toward the cave mouth. The way was steep but smooth. With my cane, I could manage. We gathered under a limestone overhang while Van related the tragic legend of the fisherman’s daughter who had given the cave its nickname. I half-listened, absorbed by the breathtaking view. The little harbor stretched perhaps a hundred feet below us, studded with red sails, framed by green foliage. Further in the distance, the dragon’s teeth rose out of the water, hazy in the mist.

The scene was timeless perfection. It might be worth the entire cost of the trip.

After his introduction, Van led the main group into the cave’s depths. I strolled after them, not even trying to keep up. My leg had begun to throb. In any case, I didn’t have much desire to stick with the crowd and learn the names of each stalactite and stalagmite. I’d seen caves before; a few months after we’d met, Josh had taken me on a trip to Carlsbad Caverns.

We’d borrowed a studio car and driven straight from LA, stopping only to eat and get gas— and once, when we couldn’t stand being apart a moment longer, to make frantic love under the blazing desert sun.

Memories of Josh brought a slow ache, instead of the usual stab of hopeless grief. Maybe, after all these years, I was finally healing. Or maybe the environment, with its unearthly peace, had blunted the edge of my pain.

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Sunday, March 30, 2025

Charity Sunday: An epidemic of selfishness – #Homelessness #Compassion #CharitySunday

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Welcome to the March 2025 edition of Charity Sunday. I’m glad you took the time to drop by

For today’s event, I am featuring one of my favorite charities: Rosie’s Place. An independent multi-function social service center, Rosie’s Place has been helping vulnerable women in the Boston area for more than fifty years. The organization provides shelter, food, clothing, sanitary facilities, child care, education and employment advice to women dealing with homelessness, domestic abuse, addiction and related issues. Most importantly, Rosie’s treats each of its “guests” with respect and compassion. 

 

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These days it seems that compassion is in pretty short supply, especially in the United States. The country has been infected by an epidemic of selfishness. Apparently, “America First” translates into “me first, and everyone else be damned”. There’s a disturbing tendency to blame people who are in need – those people who depended on help from the richest country in the world but have now been abandoned – for their problems, as if their tribulations were deserved and somehow made them less worthy.

Ultimately, though we’re all at risk. Poverty, disaster, disease and conflict – it would be nice to think we’re immune, but our world can change in the blink of an eye. Covid taught us that. The Golden Rule isn’t just a warm and fuzzy idea. It’s a practical guide for living. If we were in trouble, wouldn’t we want to receive the help and compassion of others who were more fortunate?

Anyway, I’ll get off my soapbox now and let my blood pressure subside. Rosie’s Place is a local organization, working to solve local problems. That may in fact be the only way to make progress against the multiple challenges we face.

So for this Charity Sunday I will donate two dollars to Rosie’s for every comment I receive. Help me prove that compassion is still alive.

For my excerpt, I’ve got a snippet from my short story “The First Stone”, originally published in Cheyenne Blue’s 2014 anthology Forbidden Fruit: Stories of Unwise Lesbian Desire. The tale is set in a women’s shelter in Boston, not too different from Rosie’s, and explores the attraction between a nun working at the shelter and the ex-addict hooker who’s one of the “guests”.

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You're kinda pretty, for a nun.”

The voice was low and throaty, laced with echoes of the ghetto. It dragged me away from the columns of figures marching down the screen in front of me, out of the well-ordered realm of accounting and into the messiness of our inmates' lives. Our guests, I corrected myself. Nobody was forced to stay at Serenity House.

Um — excuse me? Can I help you?”

My interlocutor grinned at me. Her plump, mauve-painted lips framed teeth that were a shocking white in her ebony face. She shook her head. Cheap, brassy earrings dangled from her fleshy lobes, swinging back and forth over her bare shoulders.

Just wanted to say hi. Oh, an' to ask if I can stay out past curfew tonight. Heard you were in charge.” She extended a hand tipped with hot pink fingernails. “I'm Magnolia. Me and Moonbeam just got here yesterday.”

November in Boston, two weeks before Thanksgiving, but Magnolia's skin felt August-hot. The woman's breasts almost overflowed the sequined tube top that constrained them. Below, she wore baggy sweatpants with a Celtics logo that didn't hide her more than ample curves. Her feet were crammed into open-toed high heels of scuffed gold-toned plastic. She towered over me. I felt pretty sure that would be true even if I were standing.

Moonbeam?” Confronted by this apparition, I couldn't seem to manage more than a couple of words.

My kid.” Magnolia indicated a diminutive toddler with kinky pigtails, sprawled on the floor of the common room, surrounded by alphabet blocks. Hard to believe that delicate child was the offspring of this Amazon.

Ah — um — well, you're very welcome here, Magnolia. We're glad to have you with us.” I struggled for the warm yet professional manner I'd learned to adopt with our guests. Rising from my chair, I gave her hand a firm squeeze before relinquishing it. My skin tingled in the aftermath. I'd been right; she stood half a head taller than my five feet six inches, and probably weighed nearly twice what I did. “Have a seat, please. I'm Sister Kathleen Patrick, the assistant director. But I guess you know that.”

She settled her bottom into the chair I'd indicated. “Yeah, the other gals told me. Pleased to meet you, Sister.” Her plucked eyebrows knotted into a frown. “That what I should call you? I ain't had much experience with nuns.”

Her obvious concern made me chuckle. “'Sister' would be fine. Or you can just call me Kathleen. We don't stand on ceremony here at Serenity House.”

Not like at Baystate Rehab. You forget to call one of the nurses 'Miz' or 'Mister', you lose privs for twenty-four hours.” She swiped the back of her hand across her brown forehead, which was beaded with sweat. The woman must have a furnace inside.

There was something lush and tropical about Magnolia. Her name fit her. She seemed totally out of place in this shabby office lit by the unrelenting gray of the late autumn sky. I could imagine her wrapped in a rainbow-hued sarong, dancing barefoot on a beach beneath swaying palms. Or swimming naked through the waves under a golden moon...

I hauled my thoughts back to the present. “Is that where you've just come from?” Not all our guests had substance abuse problems, but it was pretty common.

Escaped is more like it.” She giggled. “This place's like heaven after Bayhab. Six fucking weeks — oh, sorry, Sister — I mean, six long weeks in that hellhole! Away from my baby, too. 'Course, I deserved it. All the junk I pumped into my veins, not thinkin' about who'd care for her if something happened to me. Then the OD — I really fucked up. Oh, I'm sorry, Sister!”

Never mind. So you've made yourself comfortable, then? You're happy with your room?” Yesterday had been my day off. Rachel must have done the intake. I reminded myself to check Magnolia's file after she'd left the office.

It's great. I'm sharing with Lou-Ellen and her little boy. He's only a couple months older than Moonbeam. Food's good, too.” She flashed me another grin and glanced down at her generous body. “Not that I need it!”

Her laughter kindled mine. Our eyes met. Hers were espresso-brown, practically black, fringed with mascara-augmented lashes. They snagged me like magnets.

Something jolted through me — a lightning strike, a sudden storm, some personal earthquake. The floor dropped out from under my chair and I found myself suspended in space. My breath caught in my throat and perspiration soaked the armpits of my gray wool sweater. I'd been chilly before — we tried to stretch our donor's generosity as far as possible — but now I burned. I couldn't tear myself away from her gaze, though I knew I'd been staring far too long.

Are you okay, Sister?” Her husky voice, barely louder than a whisper, wound its way into my stunned consciousness. Her hand hovered above mine, threatening a gesture of comfort.

Don't touch me, I pleaded silently. Don't. I pulled back, abruptly enough that I probably seemed impolite, and folded my hands in my lap, a safe distance from the smooth, dark glow of her skin. An almost forgotten ache woke in my belly. The tips of my breasts tingled under my shapeless garments.

Ah — oh, um — sorry. I — um — just felt a bit faint. Most likely it's low blood sugar. I have problems with that sometimes.” I fumbled in my desk drawer and found a couple of lemon drops. “These help. Do you want one?”

I shouldn't,” Magnolia replied. But she popped it into her mouth anyway, her lips pursed into a tight O around the candy.

I sucked hard on the sweet-sour nugget, glad for an excuse not to talk while I regained my composure. What in the name of Jesus was going on? Why was I reacting this way? She was a guest, a client. I had a responsibility to her and her child, a responsibility to protect and succor her. To nurture her fragile recovery and send her back into the world stronger, better able to handle the challenges I knew she'd face. To do that, I had to be friendly but a bit aloof. Our women needed the sense of authority that came with my status. They needed the discipline.

As for me — I was a nun, for heaven's sake, sworn to chastity and a pure life of service to others. Lust was a mortal sin.

Lusting after a man would be bad enough. I didn't need to worry about that. Since Tony, I'd had no desire for a man. The body the nuns had snatched from the jaws of death served me and my God well, but my sexual self seemed to have bled out from the razor wounds and down the drain.

Lust for a woman, though... An abomination! I'd been brought up in the Church. The catechism was silent on the question, but of course I knew it was forbidden. Mary Jane, Griselda and Brigitte had never been more than beloved friends.


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