One frequent question in author interviews is, “Why do you write?” A remarkably common answer seems to be, “I can't not write. My characters harangue me until I tell their story.” These writers often add comments to the effect that their characters tend to hijack the plot, to twist the story in directions the author never intended or expected. One of my writer friends (who seems to have a limitless imagination) tells me that her characters from different books compete for her attention, each one yelling and demanding to be let loose on the page.
I
feel inadequate. My characters almost never talk to me, at least not
in the way these people describe.
I'd
like to believe that the people I create in my books feel real. I
work hard to avoid stereotypes, because I want my readers to be
surprised and delighted by where my stories take them. After hearing
about the experience of my character-obsessed (or perhaps I should
say “character-possessed”) friends, though, I begin to wonder
whether my characters are somehow less vivid or fully-fleshed than
theirs.
My
characters do talk to each other. I couldn't write dialogue if that
were not true. When I 'm at a spot where a conversation seems to be
required, I alternate mentally among the POVs of the participants and
write down what they say. In a sense, I do “hear” them in my
thoughts, but only while they're speaking.
I
also sometimes ask my characters questions when I'm stuck over some
plot point. “What are you going to do now? What do you want?”
Answers typically come as disembodied ideas, though, rather than
straight from the character's mouth. Also, unlike some authors, I
don't find that my heroes and heroines generally order me around, or
reveal themselves to be totally different people from my initial
impressions.
Sure,
I come to understand them better as I write. Sometimes I discover
secrets about their history or desires. Occasionally the story will
veer from my expectations due to a character's revelations - but
rarely in a major way.
I
guess this means that my writing is “plot-driven” as opposed to
“character-driven”. Intellectually, I realize that these are
simply two different approaches, and that one is not superior to the
other. Romance readers give such primacy to character, however, that
it's hard for me not to feel inferior. Would my books be better –
would I sell more of them – if my characters talked to me? Should I
try to get them to open up and start chatting?
When
I run my mind over my back list, one of my favorite characters is
Ruby Jones from my ménage novella Wild About That Thing.
A single mother abandoned by her philandering husband, Ruby's
passionate about two things: her struggling blues club and her
teenaged son. Her love life comes as a distant third, despite the
efforts of her lead singer Zeke Chambers to convince her otherwise.
Although Zeke can drive her wild with desire, Ruby's determined she's
going to make it on her own. She's hot-blooded like her bluesman
daddy, happy to satisfy her physical cravings, but she's not about to
let any man into her heart.
When
I was writing this story, I did hear Ruby's voice in my mind, but she
wasn't talking to me. The experience was more like eavesdropping on
her own thoughts. It was a particularly poignant experience because
she
in some sense hears voices – the internalized criticisms of her
controlling mother, which seem to find fault with everything she
does.
Here's
a brief example.
Get
hold of yourself, girl. You gotta pay attention to your business.
Ruby
splashed cold water on her cheeks and brow and ran her fingers
through her riotous black curls. For once, she agreed with her inner
critic. Her life was complicated enough without the addition of
tempting strangers who inspired irresistible lust.
Her
heart was still beating a mile a minute, though. She could see the
pulse in her throat, making the brown skin twitch. She was
hot-blooded—Zeke often told her that, and she knew it was true—but
there was a time and place for sex, and this wasn’t it.
Her
clit throbbed inside her soaked panties. Her nipples were so
sensitive that the rubbing of her lace bra felt like burlap. She
closed her eyes and tried to centre herself.
Breathe.
That’s what her papa used to tell her, before she got up to sing.
Inhale, then let all the feelings you don’t want pour out along
with the bad air. The old trick still worked. Gradually, her skin
cooled and her heart slowed to a more normal rate.
When
she used the toilet, she saw that her bikini briefs were even wetter
than she’d expected. Too bad she didn’t have time to nip upstairs
for a fresh pair, but she’d been in the john too long already. She
needed to get back to work.
Ruby
struggled to pull the damp, tight jeans over her ample hips.
It’s like I’m a teenager again,
she thought with a bit of an inner grin. Maybe
I’m ovulating or something. There’s gotta be some explanation.
After
the relative brightness of the rest room, the dimness of the club
left her momentarily blind. She blinked, trying to get her eyes to
adjust. It was a minute or two before she paid attention to what was
happening on stage.
The
band was playing The
Sky is Crying,
Zeke bent over his instrument, coaxing out mournful notes that almost
sounded like sobs. Meanwhile, at the mic, in the spotlight, stood the
stranger who’d made her sweat. He was picking at Jojo’s bass and
singing the lead.
Ruby
caught her breath. The guy was amazing. His solid tenor voice wrung
every ounce of emotion from the lyrics. His fingers walked the
strings with a confidence born of long experience. He was every bit
as good at Zeke, in his own way. The real deal.
Even
on stage, though, his lean body hardly moved. He didn’t tap his
toes, or sway, or roll his hips. Ruby sensed the energy bottled up
inside him, barely contained by his focus on the music. He was still
but he was not at peace. The blues gnawed at his soul.
The
lust she’d just managed to tame slammed back into her. The music
coiled in her belly. Her clit pulsed in time with the beat. She
rocked her pelvis and squeezed her thighs. She wanted him. She wanted
to strip off her clothing and dance naked, shaking her full breasts
and her ripe ass in his face. She wanted to break through his wall of
control and make him beg for her.
Zeke
raised his head from his picking, tossed his hair out of his eyes,
and grinned at the crowd. Ruby’s lust expanded. Now she wanted
Zeke’s burly arms around her, his blunt fingers teasing her aching
nipples. She didn’t know what the stranger’s cock might be like,
but oh, she could vividly imagine Zeke’s fat rod pounding into her,
pushing her closer and closer to the sharp edge of release. She
needed that, needed it right now. Otherwise, she’d go crazy.
Her
body screamed for someone’s touch. She thought about easing her
zipper down and slipping a hand inside her trousers. Would anyone
notice? The bar was dark and all the customers were focused on the
stage. It would be easy—she’d just have to keep quiet…
The
end of the song released her from her trance of arousal. Ruby rushed
towards the front of the bar, desperate to meet the mysterious
bassist. The place had become more crowded, though. She had to inch
her way forward through the sweating, clapping throng. By the time
she arrived at the stage, the stranger was nowhere to be seen, though
the audience was still applauding. Jojo’s bass lay abandoned at the
foot of the mic stand.
“Hey,
darlin’!” Zeke greeted her with his typical warmth. “He’s
really something, isn’t he?”
“Sure
is. But where’d he go?”
“No
idea. He practically ran off the stage. Almost like he was spooked by
the crowd.”
Ruby
pushed past the doorman, out into the chill April night. She peered
into the darkness. The sidewalks were empty. There was no sign of the
smooth, self-contained stranger whose touch she’d craved so badly.
Just
as well,
commented the sour voice in her head. The
last thing you need in your life is another lover.
****
So
what do you think? Does Ruby talk to you?
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