Anyone
who has read my blog posts will know that I have a bit of a problem
with genre labels. My own work doesn't fit into neat pigeonholes, and
often, the fiction I enjoy most is just as stubborn. I've found that
the best books frequently defy categorization – or create new
genres, which is basically the same thing.
Advocates
of labeling claim that assigning books to particular genres helps
readers find what they like. I'd argue that it's just as likely to
discourage readers from picking up something new that they might
actually love.
If
you had to pin me down, though, I guess I’d label what I write most
often as “erotica”. Of course, this is the kiss of death from a
marketing perspective. Many readers have the (mistaken) idea that a
book that calls itself erotica will include constant, graphic sex.
Some people think that this also implies an absence of plot. I sigh
when I encounter this sort of attitude, which seems to be to be quite
wrong.
You
want my opinion? (Well, of course you do, or you wouldn't be reading
my post...) I think that erotica is not about sex, per se. Erotica
is fiction that focuses on the experience of sexual desire. Sexual
desire may be a concomitant or precursor to physical sexual activity,
but it doesn't have to be. Desire in its many variants (arousal,
lust, love, obsession) is fundamentally an emotional state or
process. Thus, it's theoretically possible to write erotica that
contains no overt sex at all. (More on this below.)
Conversely,
a story that includes graphic sex does not deserve to be called
erotica unless the author is primarily concerned with the characters'
feelings about their encounters, and how those feelings affect the
non-sexual aspects of the characters' lives. To the extent that sex
is treated as a mindless, instinctual activity, a response to a
stimulus that brings relief like a sneeze, it does not (in my view)
merit the term erotic.
I've
been a member of the Erotica Readers & Writers Association for
more than a decade. ERWA has a list called Storytime, where members
share their erotic fiction (and poetry) and ask for critiques. I
don't participate in Storytime now – I just don't have the time –
but the three or four years that I did had a powerful influence on my
own writing.
In
any case, I still recall one story that was posted on Storytime –
at least ten years ago. I don't remember who wrote it, though I
recall that it was a man. The main – indeed, the only – character
is a soldier, staying in a cheap rented room somewhere, maybe Paris.
A woman lives in the next room; the walls are thin. Night after night
he listens to the sounds she makes coupling with her lover. He finds
himself terribly aroused by this unseen female. He masturbates to her
cries. He fantasizes about meeting her, about taking her lover's
place. His obsession grows, his desire is unbearable, yet he still
can't find the courage to knock on her door. Finally, one day, she's
gone – the room next door is empty.
I
found this story to be one of the most erotic pieces I've ever read.
There was no sex involved, or at least none that involved the object
of desire. Yet the tale managed to convey such a sense of yearning, a
desperate, intense need – manufactured entirely out of the
soldier's imagination.
That
story (I really wish I still had a copy) has become my touchstone for
erotica. I enjoy writing about sex, but like the soldier, it's the
idea of sex that really turns me on. I've experimented, trying to
write (and sell) erotica that keeps the physical side of sex to an
absolute minimum. One story that falls into that category is
“Stroke”, which originally appeared in Please Sir: Erotic Storiesof Female Submission, edited by Rachel Kramer Bussel. The male
protagonist is a Dom who's bedridden in a rehab facility, partially
paralyzed by a stroke. The heroine is his nurse, who suffers from
kinky fantasies her boyfriend labels as sick and shameful. The
dominant manages to fulfill Cassie's fantasies, without ever touching
her.
~~~
"Look
at me." His tone was softer but no less firm. I raised my eyes
to his, which were the startling blue of glacial ice. I shivered and
burned. "You're new, aren't you?"
"Yes."
"Yes,
Sir," he corrected me. My nipples tightened inside my bra.
"Yes,
Sir." Just his voice was enough to make me ache.
"What's
your name?"
"Cassie,
Sir. Cassie Leonard."
"Don't
look away, Cassie. Look at me. Do you know who I am?"
"No,
Sir. I just started at Lindenwood this week. Before that I was in the
rehab department at Miriam Hospital."
"My
slaves call me Master Jonathan."
My
earlobes, my nipples, my fingertips, all seemed to catch fire. I
wanted to sink through the floor. I didn't want him to see how his
words excited me.
But
he did see. I stared at my hands, knuckles white from gripping the
rail.
"You
have a boyfriend, don't you?"
"Yes,
Sir, I do." An image of Ryan rose in my mind, his brown curls
and uneven grin, muscled chest and hard thighs. I did love him, truly
I did, with his quirky humor, his gentle fingers and his boyish
ardor. He was a fine young man. My mother approved of him.
"He
doesn't satisfy you." It was a statement, not a question. Tears
of remembered frustration pricked the corners of my eyes. "Why
not, Cassie? Is his cock too small?"
I
couldn't believe I was having this conversation with a stranger, a
patient, a half-paralyzed man forty years older than I was. I stole a
glance at Dr. Carver. His mouth was firm but his eyes sparkled with
suppressed mirth.
"No,
Sir. His cock is fine." Ryan was justifiably proud of his meaty
hard-ons.
"What
is it then? Is he a selfish lover? Does he come too quickly for you?"
Guilt
washed over me. Ryan would happily spend hours licking my pussy and
fingering me, trying to get me off. The only way I could manage it
was to think about scenes from the kinky porn I hid from him.
Whippings and spankings, gags and handcuffs, all the clichés that I
couldn't stop myself from wanting.
"Well?
Tell me, Cassie. What do you need that he doesn't provide? What do
you want?"
My
mouth filled with cotton. I couldn't speak. I was acutely aware of my
rigid nipples pressing against the starched fabric of my uniform. My
clit pulsed like a sore tooth inside my sodden panties.
"Cassie,
I'm waiting." His sternness sent electricity shimmering through
my limbs. "Don't disappoint me."
I
dared a glance at his face. His left eyelid drooped slightly. His
eyes snared mine. I couldn't look away. One eyebrow arched in an
unspoken question.
"I—um—I
want him to, uh, to do things to me. That he doesn't want to do.” I
tried to break away from his gaze, but the force of his will held me.
“Things?”
He sounded amused. A fresh wave of hot, wet shame swamped my body.
“What sort of things?”
“Uh—tie
me up. Spank me. Use me. Treat me like his slave.” It all came out
in a rush, the desires I'd never shared with anyone except Ryan. Even
then, I'd only shown him the tip of the iceberg, the least perverted
of my needs. “He wouldn't, though. He was shocked when I told him.
Disgusted. Said that I had a filthy mind.” The tears that had
gathered earlier spilled out over my cheeks.
“I
imagine that you do, little one, delightfully filthy.” His voice
was a caress, soothing and seductive. “I knew that right away, just
from your reactions to my voice. Your deepest desire is to submit to
a strong master, isn't it?”
“Yes—Sir.”
I felt relief, now that I'd admitted my secret. He at least didn't
seem to condemn me.
“You
want to be beaten and buggered, shackled to the bed and split open by
a huge cock. You want to bath in your master's come, maybe even his
piss. To be forced to service his friends.”
It
was thrilling and horrible, listening to him enumerating my darkest
fantasies out loud. My clit felt the size of a ripe plum, swollen and
juicy, ready to burst. I nodded, still finding it difficult to expose
myself so completely.
“I
will do those things for you, if you'd like.”
“You?”
The suggestion startled me enough that I forgot the honorific, but
he seemed to forgive my lapse. I searched his handsome, ravaged face.
“How...?”
“Don't
underestimate me, girl. I may not be the Dom I once was, but I can
still make you burn for my touch. I can still make you beg.” He
snagged the button on the end of its cord and raised himself to full
sitting position. He moved more smoothly and easily than before.
“Remove your clothing.”
~~~
No
sex at all in this story. Just overwhelming sexual need. Is it
erotic? I think so. And I suppose at some level it is about sex –
the kind of sex that happens in the mind.
I
really do subscribe to the philosophy summarized by my tag line.
Imagination is the ultimate aphrodisiac. For me, erotica deals, first
and foremost, with the mental and emotional aspects of desire. The
physical stuff is optional.
